I wouldn’t be staying true to this blog if I didn’t post about this.
I spent a big part of last week preparing to intentionally relapse on Saturday. It was a habit I was well over but through lack of better judgement I wanted to take a step back from my years of progress and revert for even a few hours. Though I fully was aware of the consequences, I kept on preparing.
However, the way the universe came together that day, I was unable to complete or even attempt it. It was a miracle. He saved me that night. In a situation where I had control of only myself, no matter how determined I was, He was the only one who could protect me and He did. I now remember weakness without having to succumb to it, and in turn I now know strength.
Apologies for the vague post. Though anyone may guess what this can be referencing, no one will ever know each of the other elements involved which makes this habit affect me so heavily. I only hope to one day look back at this to appreciate just another of the blessings He has given me.